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Mom, is doing today, and how you can help.)
May 18, 2002: Four Years Later
Here are Bear and
Nicholas. Nicholas is the one sitting.
May 19,1998
Dearest Friends,
As you know, Dale and I have been fighting
lymphoma with our precious little mutt-a-poo,
Nicholas, for the past year. He was diagnosed
on April 19, 1997. We flew him to Colorado
State University and were told we could have
seven to nine months of good quality life
with him, with chemotherapy. We were told
that the chemo wouldn’t make him sick, and
he would still be himself. We chose Oklahoma
State University School of Veterinary Medicine,
and a wonderful cancer doctor, Dr. Paul Woods
to treat our little one that we love so much.
So, once every two weeks, then later, once
a week, Nick and I would drive to Stillwater,
for the treatments. He never acted any other
way than the Nicki we knew. After each doctor
visit, Nicholas and I would go through the
drive- up window at McDonald’s for his cheeseburger.
He always LOVED that!! We made a promise
to him, that we would not let him be sick,
or in pain. Today, we kept that promise to
him. With his Mom and his Dad holding him
in our arms, and his brother Bear by his
side, Nicholas crossed The Rainbow Bridge
to wait for us. I softly sang to him as he
left us. He was sick only today. Last night
he ate and even chased the ball. This morning
he was especially cuddly to his Dad and Me.
But I knew something was wrong, because he
wouldn’t eat, (and Nicholas LOVED to eat!!)
so we took him up to McKinney Animal Hospital
to have a blood test done. It showed that
his kidneys and liver were shutting down.
There was nothing more we could do for our
baby,Nicki. He did not feel well, and we
knew..... it was time. It is sort of ironic,
but it was six years ago, today, that we
had our beloved eighteen year old poodles,
Fred and Munchie, put to sleep. I told Nicholas,
that Uncle Fred would be waiting for him.
I’m sure he was.
I would like to thank each of you for your
prayers, and concern, but most of all for
your friendship, and understanding. I’m sorry
I have seemed to withdraw from society, but
I felt it was very important to be home and
spend every minute that I could with Nicholas.
I don’t regret this decision at all.
I also would like to thank the staff at McKinney
Animal Hospital, in Prattville, for all of
their help. Debbie and Cindy, who always
took my phone calls, and got the doctors
right away for me, and Amy, Nick and Bear’s
groomer, and Angie and Toby, and Adele, for
always treating Nick with such respect (Angie
and Adele were there with us at the end,
and their tears were so appreciated.)
Dr. Phil Mckinney and Dr. Jennifer Williams
were wonderful, always communicating with
Dr. Woods at O. S. U.
Dr. Williams is the one who helped us keep
our promise to Nicholas, today. She was so
very compassionate, and her tears were appreciated
as well.
I also want to thank Dr. Rex Johnson, who
has since moved to Texas, to manage his own
practice. He was wonderful to us. Dr. Brooks
Ahalt, who has since moved to Maryland, is
the one who convinced us to come to O.S.U.
for the treatment. Nick really loved these
guys!! And, Nancy Simpson, who was the person
behind the desk at O.S.U., actually sketched
Nick’s portrait in pencil, and brought it
all the way to Tulsa, to our home, as a last
gift to us. God bless Nancy Simpson! (The
portrait is framed, and in our master bath.
Please ask to see it, when you come to visit!)
We have a tremendous amount of gratitude
for Dr. Paul Woods, at O.S.U. If I were to
ever get cancer, I would want Dr. Woods to
take care of me!! He always treated Nicholas
like the angel that he was, carrying him
back and forth from I.C.U., where he would
get the medicine,... that gave us more time.
Dr. Woods was a Godsend to us, and I always
said, that, we wouldn’t put Nick to sleep,
until HE, said it was time. Today, he said
it was time. Thank you so very much, Dr.
Woods.
Most of all, I want to thank my dear husband,
for providing for us, so that I didn’t have
to work, and could stay home and take care
of Nicholas, and drive him back and forth
to O.S.U., and for paying for all of Nicholas’
medical bills, without batting an eye. Nicholas
couldn’t have had a better Daddy! He loved
his Dad so much! Thank you all for loving
us. We love you. .
Sincerely,
Robin Pressnall
This is the
wonderful drawing, that Nancy Simpson, the
receptionist at O.S.U., did of our
baby. Isn’t it GREAT?!!
This is Dr. Paul
Woods, Nick’s wonderful doctor at Oklahoma
State University! He carried him
like this alot!!
This is Nicholas
watching the movie, “Babe”!
Nicki watching a
slide of himself, as a four month old puppy!!
Nicholas’ first
meeting of Adele,a Norwiegian Dwarf Bunny!
He raised her, and was always very
protective of her. She is almost ten years
old, and doing well!
Adele the Bunny, and
Sam Walton
(Update: Adele passed away, in her sleep,
at the age of 11, and I know, that
now, she and Nicholas, are together.)
We never understood
why Nicholas would watch “writing”, as if
he were reading!! He did this alot!!
Happy Birthday to
Meeeeee!!!
Here are the
bookends, Nick and Bear!!
Nicholas (on the
left ) and Bear at the butterfly garden,
two weeks before we lost him.
Nicholas taught
himself this trick! He would do it whenever
he wanted to make ladies say,”Oh ,
look how cute!!” Sometimes he would just
do it for me!!
This was last
Christmas, our last Christmas, with our precious
Nicholas....It was the BEST
Christmas!
If you are
grieving the loss of your furbaby, please
know, that you are not alone .I send
this letter out to people who E-Mail me,
to tell me they have lost their baby.
I’m so very sorry ,for the loss you are experiencing.
I understand and know
your pain because we lost our precious little
muttapoo, Nicholas, on May 19,
1998. He was diagnosed with Canine Lymphoma,
in April of 1997. We fought hard,
but it finally won. He was never really sick,
until the day we put him to
sleep. I don’t have any human children, and
I feel as if I have lost the love
of my life. But I want to tell you... it
DOES get easier.There may be some days
when you don’t even want to get out of bed...
but there WILL come a time, when
you think of your baby, that you smile, instead
of cry...I promise......I’m
going to tell you a story... It is a true
story. It is a story I hope you will
pass on to others when you hear of a need.
This is what happened....Two years
ago, a friend of ours, Lou, was diagnosed
with breast cancer. It was to late to
do much to help her. Another friend of our’s,
Jan, was Lou’s best friend, and
also a nurse. On many occasions, Jan and
I would have “discussions” about
whether or not animals went to heaven. I
always contended that they did,
because the Bible says that there are white
horses at the right hand of God...
so it always seemed to me, that there would
be other animals in heaven. She always
said, that animals did not have souls, therefore
they could not go to
heaven.(Her strict Baptist upbringing was
coming through!) As Lou became sicker
and sicker, Jan stayed with her day and night.
Lou finally sank into a coma,
and stayed there for three weeks. When she
died, Jan was there. She called me
the next morning to tell me that Lou had
died. But she didn’t tell me the rest
of the story for several weeks. It seems
that on the night Lou died, she awoke
suddenly from the coma! Her eyes sprang open,
and she exclaimed,”SPARKY!!”. And
then just as suddenly... she died. None of
her family knew who “Sparky” was.
Not her husband of 45 years, not her grown
children..no one. One day, a couple
of weeks later, Jan got a call from Lou’s
family, asking her to come over. It
seemed they had something important to show
her. It was an old black and white
picture.... of a little girl, and a German
Shepherd. On the back it was hand
written in faded ink...Lou...age 10...and
Sparky........ I believe you’ll see
your baby again! And know this!! Your fur
baby is having the time of their
life!!! And they knew how deeply you loved,
and that you always will....I think
they would want us to be happy for the time
we shared together .. . Huggs and
prayers to you. I want you to know, you are
not alone in loving a dog so much!
Robin Pressnall
THE RAINBOW BRIDGE
There is a bridge connecting heaven and earth.
It is called the rainbow bridge,
because of its many colors. Just this side
of the rainbow bridge, there is a
land of meadows, hills, and valleys with
lush green grass.
Whenever a beloved pet dies, that pet goes
to the Rainbow Bridge. There is
always food and water and warm spring weather
so all our special friends can
run and play together. All the animals who
had become ill and old are restored
to health and vigor; those who are hurt or
maimed are made whole and strong
again, just as we remember them in our dreams
of days and times gone by.
There is only one thing missing. They are
not with their special person who
loved them on earth and who had to be left
behind.
They all run and play together, but the day
comes when one suddenly stops
playing and looks up. The nose twitches,
the ears come up, the bright eyes are
intent, the body quivers. Then this one suddenly
runs from the group, flying
over the green grass, his legs carrying him
faster and faster.
YOU have been spotted, and when you and your
special friend finally meet, you
cling together in joyous reunion, never to
be parted again. The happy kisses
rain upon your face; your hands caress the
beloved head, and you look once more
into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long
gone from your life but never
absent from your heart.
Then you cross the RAINBOW BRIDGE together......never
again to be separated.
Author unknown.
I am Still Here
I stood by your bed last night, I came to
have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found
it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away
a tear,
”It’s me, I haven’t left you, I’m well, I’m
fine, I’m here.”
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched
you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your
hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms
were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could
do more.
I was with you at my grave today, You tend
it with such care.
I want to reassure you, that I’m not lying
there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you
fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and
said “it’s me.”
You looked so very tired, and sank into a
chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was
standing there.
It’s possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, “I never went
away.”
You sat there very quietly, then smiled,
I think you knew ... in the
stillness of that evening, I was very close
to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you
yawning
and say “goodnight, God bless, I’ll see you
in the morning.”
And when the time is right for you to cross
the brief divide,
I’ll rush across to greet you and we’ll stand,
side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there
is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ... then
come home to be with me.
Author unknown
After we lost our Nikki, we were all pretty
lost. Poor Bear wouldn’t eat...for
several days. Our wonderful vet, Jennifer
Williams, told me that Bear probably
was a “competition eater”. He would eat,
only if he had someone around, who
would eat his food...if he didn’t. So the
search began for a puppy...and we
were blessed...again. Please visit “Chipper”,
our new Bichon Frise baby!
Please, see also, The Haven Animal Shelter - Friends for Life
Please see also, Pet Tribute Forum’s Story about Nicholas
Please see also, Pet Tribute Forum’s Story:Add Yours. This is an EXCELLENT site. It offers information on Pet Loss Support, Animal Hospice, Pet Care and Resources, Pet Rescue & Shelters, Pet Loss Sites on the Internet, and various other pet sites!
I have an exciting new site, about canine cancer.It has links to treatments, along with personal stories of triumph, over this dreaded disease.To see it, click here. Robin’s Canine Cancer Files
And Thanks to...I would like to thank Leilah’s Mom, from , Dog House Bulletin Board @ Acme Pet She has spent MANY hours, and sent MANY e-mails, helping me to publish this web page.
Also ,Thanks to Teresa, owner of, The Beauty’s Award Site , for choosing me for this honor. I cried when I learned that I had recieved it for Nicholas’ Story. Thank You, Teresa.
And last but not least, I thank John, of for the award for Nicholas’ Story! Pet Loss Memorials and Tributes..Add Yours. for the award for Nicholas’ Story!
If Nicholas’s Story has touched your heart, please visit Nicholas’ Mom’s new rescue site. It is an uplifting site!
Text and Photos Copyright© 1998 Robin Pressnall.