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May 18, 2002: Four Years Later
Here are Bear and Nicholas. Nicholas is the one sitting.
As you know, Dale and I have been fighting lymphoma with our precious little mutt-a-poo, Nicholas, for the past year. He was diagnosed on April 19, 1997. We flew him to Colorado State University and were told we could have seven to nine months of good quality life with him, with chemotherapy. We were told that the chemo wouldn’t make him sick, and he would still be himself. We chose Oklahoma State University School of Veterinary Medicine, and a wonderful cancer doctor, Dr. Paul Woods to treat our little one that we love so much. So, once every two weeks, then later, once a week, Nick and I would drive to Stillwater, for the treatments. He never acted any other way than the Nicki we knew. After each doctor visit, Nicholas and I would go through the drive- up window at McDonald’s for his cheeseburger. He always LOVED that!! We made a promise to him, that we would not let him be sick, or in pain. Today, we kept that promise to him. With his Mom and his Dad holding him in our arms, and his brother Bear by his side, Nicholas crossed The Rainbow Bridge to wait for us. I softly sang to him as he left us. He was sick only today. Last night he ate and even chased the ball. This morning he was especially cuddly to his Dad and Me. But I knew something was wrong, because he wouldn’t eat, (and Nicholas LOVED to eat!!) so we took him up to McKinney Animal Hospital to have a blood test done. It showed that his kidneys and liver were shutting down. There was nothing more we could do for our baby,Nicki. He did not feel well, and we knew..... it was time. It is sort of ironic, but it was six years ago, today, that we had our beloved eighteen year old poodles, Fred and Munchie, put to sleep. I told Nicholas, that Uncle Fred would be waiting for him. I’m sure he was.
I would like to thank each of you for your prayers, and concern, but most of all for your friendship, and understanding. I’m sorry I have seemed to withdraw from society, but I felt it was very important to be home and spend every minute that I could with Nicholas. I don’t regret this decision at all.
I also would like to thank the staff at McKinney Animal Hospital, in Prattville, for all of their help. Debbie and Cindy, who always took my phone calls, and got the doctors right away for me, and Amy, Nick and Bear’s groomer, and Angie and Toby, and Adele, for always treating Nick with such respect (Angie and Adele were there with us at the end, and their tears were so appreciated.)
Dr. Phil Mckinney and Dr. Jennifer Williams were wonderful, always communicating with Dr. Woods at O. S. U.
Dr. Williams is the one who helped us keep our promise to Nicholas, today. She was so very compassionate, and her tears were appreciated as well.
I also want to thank Dr. Rex Johnson, who has since moved to Texas, to manage his own practice. He was wonderful to us. Dr. Brooks Ahalt, who has since moved to Maryland, is the one who convinced us to come to O.S.U. for the treatment. Nick really loved these guys!! And, Nancy Simpson, who was the person behind the desk at O.S.U., actually sketched Nick’s portrait in pencil, and brought it all the way to Tulsa, to our home, as a last gift to us. God bless Nancy Simpson! (The portrait is framed, and in our master bath. Please ask to see it, when you come to visit!)
We have a tremendous amount of gratitude for Dr. Paul Woods, at O.S.U. If I were to ever get cancer, I would want Dr. Woods to take care of me!! He always treated Nicholas like the angel that he was, carrying him back and forth from I.C.U., where he would get the medicine,... that gave us more time. Dr. Woods was a Godsend to us, and I always said, that, we wouldn’t put Nick to sleep, until HE, said it was time. Today, he said it was time. Thank you so very much, Dr. Woods.
Most of all, I want to thank my dear husband, for providing for us, so that I didn’t have to work, and could stay home and take care of Nicholas, and drive him back and forth to O.S.U., and for paying for all of Nicholas’ medical bills, without batting an eye. Nicholas couldn’t have had a better Daddy! He loved his Dad so much! Thank you all for loving us. We love you. .
This is the wonderful drawing, that Nancy Simpson, the receptionist at O.S.U., did of our baby. Isn’t it GREAT?!!
This is Dr. Paul Woods, Nick’s wonderful doctor at Oklahoma State University! He carried him like this alot!!
This is Nicholas watching the movie, “Babe”!
Nicki watching a slide of himself, as a four month old puppy!!
Nicholas’ first meeting of Adele,a Norwiegian Dwarf Bunny! He raised her, and was always very protective of her. She is almost ten years old, and doing well!
Adele the Bunny, and Sam Walton
(Update: Adele passed away, in her sleep, at the age of 11, and I know, that now, she and Nicholas, are together.)
We never understood why Nicholas would watch “writing”, as if he were reading!! He did this alot!!
Happy Birthday to Meeeeee!!!
Here are the bookends, Nick and Bear!!
Nicholas (on the left ) and Bear at the butterfly garden, two weeks before we lost him.
Nicholas taught himself this trick! He would do it whenever he wanted to make ladies say,”Oh , look how cute!!” Sometimes he would just do it for me!!
This was last Christmas, our last Christmas, with our precious Nicholas....It was the BEST Christmas!
If you are grieving the loss of your furbaby, please know, that you are not alone .I send this letter out to people who E-Mail me, to tell me they have lost their baby.
I’m so very sorry ,for the loss you are experiencing. I understand and know your pain because we lost our precious little muttapoo, Nicholas, on May 19, 1998. He was diagnosed with Canine Lymphoma, in April of 1997. We fought hard, but it finally won. He was never really sick, until the day we put him to sleep. I don’t have any human children, and I feel as if I have lost the love of my life. But I want to tell you... it DOES get easier.There may be some days when you don’t even want to get out of bed... but there WILL come a time, when you think of your baby, that you smile, instead of cry...I promise......I’m going to tell you a story... It is a true story. It is a story I hope you will pass on to others when you hear of a need. This is what happened....Two years ago, a friend of ours, Lou, was diagnosed with breast cancer. It was to late to do much to help her. Another friend of our’s, Jan, was Lou’s best friend, and also a nurse. On many occasions, Jan and I would have “discussions” about whether or not animals went to heaven. I always contended that they did, because the Bible says that there are white horses at the right hand of God... so it always seemed to me, that there would be other animals in heaven. She always said, that animals did not have souls, therefore they could not go to heaven.(Her strict Baptist upbringing was coming through!) As Lou became sicker and sicker, Jan stayed with her day and night. Lou finally sank into a coma, and stayed there for three weeks. When she died, Jan was there. She called me the next morning to tell me that Lou had died. But she didn’t tell me the rest of the story for several weeks. It seems that on the night Lou died, she awoke suddenly from the coma! Her eyes sprang open, and she exclaimed,”SPARKY!!”. And then just as suddenly... she died. None of her family knew who “Sparky” was. Not her husband of 45 years, not her grown children..no one. One day, a couple of weeks later, Jan got a call from Lou’s family, asking her to come over. It seemed they had something important to show her. It was an old black and white picture.... of a little girl, and a German Shepherd. On the back it was hand written in faded ink...Lou...age 10...and Sparky........ I believe you’ll see your baby again! And know this!! Your fur baby is having the time of their life!!! And they knew how deeply you loved, and that you always will....I think they would want us to be happy for the time we shared together .. . Huggs and prayers to you. I want you to know, you are not alone in loving a dog so much! Robin Pressnall
THE RAINBOW BRIDGE
There is a bridge connecting heaven and earth. It is called the rainbow bridge, because of its many colors. Just this side of the rainbow bridge, there is a land of meadows, hills, and valleys with lush green grass.
Whenever a beloved pet dies, that pet goes to the Rainbow Bridge. There is always food and water and warm spring weather so all our special friends can run and play together. All the animals who had become ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who are hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
There is only one thing missing. They are not with their special person who loved them on earth and who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops playing and looks up. The nose twitches, the ears come up, the bright eyes are intent, the body quivers. Then this one suddenly runs from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
YOU have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross the RAINBOW BRIDGE together......never again to be separated.
I am Still Here
I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
”It’s me, I haven’t left you, I’m well, I’m fine, I’m here.”
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you, that I’m not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said “it’s me.”
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It’s possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, “I never went away.”
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew ... in the
stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say “goodnight, God bless, I’ll see you in the morning.”
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I’ll rush across to greet you and we’ll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.
After we lost our Nikki, we were all pretty lost. Poor Bear wouldn’t eat...for several days. Our wonderful vet, Jennifer Williams, told me that Bear probably was a “competition eater”. He would eat, only if he had someone around, who would eat his food...if he didn’t. So the search began for a puppy...and we were blessed...again. Please visit “Chipper”, our new Bichon Frise baby!
Please, see also, The Haven Animal Shelter - Friends for Life
Please see also, Pet Tribute Forum’s Story:Add Yours. This is an EXCELLENT site. It offers information on Pet Loss Support, Animal Hospice, Pet Care and Resources, Pet Rescue & Shelters, Pet Loss Sites on the Internet, and various other pet sites!
I have an exciting new site, about canine cancer.It has links to treatments, along with personal stories of triumph, over this dreaded disease.To see it, click here. Robin’s Canine Cancer Files
And Thanks to...I would like to thank Leilah’s Mom, from , Dog House Bulletin Board @ Acme Pet She has spent MANY hours, and sent MANY e-mails, helping me to publish this web page.
Also ,Thanks to Teresa, owner of, The Beauty’s Award Site , for choosing me for this honor. I cried when I learned that I had recieved it for Nicholas’ Story. Thank You, Teresa.
And last but not least, I thank John, of for the award for Nicholas’ Story! Pet Loss Memorials and Tributes..Add Yours. for the award for Nicholas’ Story!
If Nicholas’s Story has touched your heart, please visit Nicholas’ Mom’s new rescue site. It is an uplifting site!
Text and Photos Copyright© 1998 Robin Pressnall.